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Yep, this still sucks – ReIntro

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That’s how I look at it Sheena.  If the thought or urge for a cig crosses my mind – I just say to myself that I don’t want it.   No way – no how!!  And this is different for me too – hoping it’s a change that will make this quit last! You are doing good!  God Bless!                      JoAnne Six days, 1 hour, 50 minutes and 57 seconds. 139 cigarettes not smoked, saving $22.36. Life saved: 11 hours, 35 minutes.

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before. > /spills guts > You know, I never felt like the last one ever quite "took." I was > miserable for most of the time.  I’ve adjusted my thinking a bit and > hopefully this will be the one. My plan is to not obsess over every > little thing, not to look at other smokers as those who GET to smoke. I > can smoke if I want to – they are readily available to me. I’ve decided > that for now I don’t want to. It’s not that I can’t or shouldn’t, I > don’t want to. It’s difficult to explain how this is different, but it > is. I think for me, obsessing over the quit every minute of the day is > destructive. Quitting is not the only thing I am doing in my life. I > feel like I made it harder than it had to be. > I finally made an appointment with a real, live psychiatrist. I will be > 14 days into the quit, so he should get a good look at the crazy me. %-) > I feel like I need someone to take a good look at my pain meds and my > history, a fresh set of eyes. I don’t hold out much hope for any big > change. In the past, all that has helped is time. Meds don’t do much, > neither does talking or writing or reading or doing little workbook > assignments. Time. I’ve got plenty of it. This doc first obtained a law > degree and then went for his MD. Most of his patients are of the > geriatric persuasion, but my GP recommended him highly. We shall see. > I’m already planning to spend the saved money. I’m getting a new wedding > band and engagement ring. Since losing weight, the old ones don’t fit. > The diamond in my solitaire is cracked – the result of slamming my hand > against the night stand at just the right angle. > Soooo… I’m back on the 21mg patch, using the inhaler. I’ve got gum and > lozenges to use when I get bored with the other methods. See, I > replenished my stock even when I was smoking because I knew I’d be back > to the quit. The vivid dreams with the patches have returned…I’m > even revisiting stories from dreams with the last quit. It’s like my > very own soap opera. > /mops up guts > What’s going on today? > -Hubbs is still smoking and talking about cutting his long hair. > -The Jack Dempsey in the tank on my desk died yesterday. > -The cory catfish are laying eggs every 8-10 days – 4th batch now. > -My LTD has been approved for another 12 months. > -Still ruling out MS > That’s about it except for writing about why I quit quitting. I’ve > thought about it and decided that there isn’t a good reason. I could > list excuses, but they aren’t worth a plug nickel. Looking back, I can > see that I was waiting for an excuse and jumped on one. > Moving the light switch, > Sheena

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Sheena — All the best to you.  The secret is — don’t ever quit quitting.  You can do this. Hang in there, Coleen – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – >Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before. >/spills guts >You know, I never felt like the last one ever quite "took." I was >miserable for most of the time.  I’ve adjusted my thinking a bit and >hopefully this will be the one. My plan is to not obsess over every >little thing, not to look at other smokers as those who GET to smoke. I >can smoke if I want to – they are readily available to me. I’ve decided >that for now I don’t want to. It’s not that I can’t or shouldn’t, I >don’t want to. It’s difficult to explain how this is different, but it >is. I think for me, obsessing over the quit every minute of the day is >destructive. Quitting is not the only thing I am doing in my life. I >feel like I made it harder than it had to be. >I finally made an appointment with a real, live psychiatrist. I will be >14 days into the quit, so he should get a good look at the crazy me. %-) >I feel like I need someone to take a good look at my pain meds and my >history, a fresh set of eyes. I don’t hold out much hope for any big >change. In the past, all that has helped is time. Meds don’t do much, >neither does talking or writing or reading or doing little workbook >assignments. Time. I’ve got plenty of it. This doc first obtained a law >degree and then went for his MD. Most of his patients are of the >geriatric persuasion, but my GP recommended him highly. We shall see. >I’m already planning to spend the saved money. I’m getting a new wedding >band and engagement ring. Since losing weight, the old ones don’t fit. >The diamond in my solitaire is cracked – the result of slamming my hand >against the night stand at just the right angle. >Soooo… I’m back on the 21mg patch, using the inhaler. I’ve got gum and >lozenges to use when I get bored with the other methods. See, I >replenished my stock even when I was smoking because I knew I’d be back >to the quit. The vivid dreams with the patches have returned…I’m >even revisiting stories from dreams with the last quit. It’s like my >very own soap opera. >/mops up guts >What’s going on today? >-Hubbs is still smoking and talking about cutting his long hair. >-The Jack Dempsey in the tank on my desk died yesterday. >-The cory catfish are laying eggs every 8-10 days – 4th batch now. >-My LTD has been approved for another 12 months. >-Still ruling out MS >That’s about it except for writing about why I quit quitting. I’ve >thought about it and decided that there isn’t a good reason. I could >list excuses, but they aren’t worth a plug nickel. Looking back, I can >see that I was waiting for an excuse and jumped on one. >Moving the light switch, >Sheena

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Yep, you’re right. No matter where you are at, it sucks. Hopefully not for ever though! And Fat Ass is still here to give you grief about your Thunder Thighs ! Paula

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before. > /spills guts > You know, I never felt like the last one ever quite "took." I was > miserable for most of the time.  I’ve adjusted my thinking a bit and > hopefully this will be the one. My plan is to not obsess over every > little thing, not to look at other smokers as those who GET to smoke. I > can smoke if I want to – they are readily available to me. I’ve decided > that for now I don’t want to. It’s not that I can’t or shouldn’t, I > don’t want to. It’s difficult to explain how this is different, but it > is. I think for me, obsessing over the quit every minute of the day is > destructive. Quitting is not the only thing I am doing in my life. I > feel like I made it harder than it had to be. > I finally made an appointment with a real, live psychiatrist. I will be > 14 days into the quit, so he should get a good look at the crazy me. %-) > I feel like I need someone to take a good look at my pain meds and my > history, a fresh set of eyes. I don’t hold out much hope for any big > change. In the past, all that has helped is time. Meds don’t do much, > neither does talking or writing or reading or doing little workbook > assignments. Time. I’ve got plenty of it. This doc first obtained a law > degree and then went for his MD. Most of his patients are of the > geriatric persuasion, but my GP recommended him highly. We shall see. > I’m already planning to spend the saved money. I’m getting a new wedding > band and engagement ring. Since losing weight, the old ones don’t fit. > The diamond in my solitaire is cracked – the result of slamming my hand > against the night stand at just the right angle. > Soooo… I’m back on the 21mg patch, using the inhaler. I’ve got gum and > lozenges to use when I get bored with the other methods. See, I > replenished my stock even when I was smoking because I knew I’d be back > to the quit. The vivid dreams with the patches have returned…I’m > even revisiting stories from dreams with the last quit. It’s like my > very own soap opera. > /mops up guts > What’s going on today? > -Hubbs is still smoking and talking about cutting his long hair. > -The Jack Dempsey in the tank on my desk died yesterday. > -The cory catfish are laying eggs every 8-10 days – 4th batch now. > -My LTD has been approved for another 12 months. > -Still ruling out MS > That’s about it except for writing about why I quit quitting. I’ve > thought about it and decided that there isn’t a good reason. I could > list excuses, but they aren’t worth a plug nickel. Looking back, I can > see that I was waiting for an excuse and jumped on one. > Moving the light switch, > Sheena

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>Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before.

Welcome back…. All your friends are still here so use us! Jack Dempseys can be a bit ungrateful sometimes Steveb

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> My plan is to not obsess over every little thing, not >to look at other

smokers as those who GET to >smoke. I can smoke if I want to – they are readily >available to me. NOW this is what I want to hear!!! To me, the key to quitting is to *stop* acting like a victim of this habit. Smoking is a choice.  You can do it or You won’t do it. Ranting about quitting is fine — just as long as it doesn’t harm your quit. Sometimes it is a good thing to just let your mind wander elsewhere and forgettaboutit.  Early in my quit,  I avoided talking about quitting smoking while in chat.  Talking about quitting used to be a huge trigger for me. What does MikeM call it?  Diversion Therapy? Do what works best for you Sheena Good to see you posting again, Joy

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> Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before.

Yeah, but having you around again doesn’t  Good to see you back to quitting! — mc I haven’t lost my mind, It is backed up on disk somewhere. QOF

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Excellent post!  And congrats on your decision, Sheena. The "not wanting" thing is KEY! This quit will stick, Good luck, DG

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before. > /spills guts > You know, I never felt like the last one ever quite "took." I was > miserable for most of the time.  I’ve adjusted my thinking a bit and > hopefully this will be the one. My plan is to not obsess over every > little thing, not to look at other smokers as those who GET to smoke. I > can smoke if I want to – they are readily available to me. I’ve decided > that for now I don’t want to. It’s not that I can’t or shouldn’t, I > don’t want to. It’s difficult to explain how this is different, but it > is. I think for me, obsessing over the quit every minute of the day is > destructive. Quitting is not the only thing I am doing in my life. I > feel like I made it harder than it had to be. > I finally made an appointment with a real, live psychiatrist. I will be > 14 days into the quit, so he should get a good look at the crazy me. %-) > I feel like I need someone to take a good look at my pain meds and my > history, a fresh set of eyes. I don’t hold out much hope for any big > change. In the past, all that has helped is time. Meds don’t do much, > neither does talking or writing or reading or doing little workbook > assignments. Time. I’ve got plenty of it. This doc first obtained a law > degree and then went for his MD. Most of his patients are of the > geriatric persuasion, but my GP recommended him highly. We shall see. > I’m already planning to spend the saved money. I’m getting a new wedding > band and engagement ring. Since losing weight, the old ones don’t fit. > The diamond in my solitaire is cracked – the result of slamming my hand > against the night stand at just the right angle. > Soooo… I’m back on the 21mg patch, using the inhaler. I’ve got gum and > lozenges to use when I get bored with the other methods. See, I > replenished my stock even when I was smoking because I knew I’d be back > to the quit. The vivid dreams with the patches have returned…I’m > even revisiting stories from dreams with the last quit. It’s like my > very own soap opera. > /mops up guts > What’s going on today? > -Hubbs is still smoking and talking about cutting his long hair. > -The Jack Dempsey in the tank on my desk died yesterday. > -The cory catfish are laying eggs every 8-10 days – 4th batch now. > -My LTD has been approved for another 12 months. > -Still ruling out MS > That’s about it except for writing about why I quit quitting. I’ve > thought about it and decided that there isn’t a good reason. I could > list excuses, but they aren’t worth a plug nickel. Looking back, I can > see that I was waiting for an excuse and jumped on one. > Moving the light switch, > Sheena

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Sheena, you are a winner!  I know it, because I’ve been seeing you in your struggles.  Most of us have been there.  Welcome back, we need you! With hope and heart, Kathleen "Dogs feel very strongly that they should always go with you in the car, in case the need should arise for them to bark violently at nothing right in your ear." — Dave Barry : Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before. : : /spills guts : You know, I never felt like the last one ever quite "took." I was : miserable for most of the time.  I’ve adjusted my thinking a bit and : hopefully this will be the one. My plan is to not obsess over every : little thing, not to look at other smokers as those who GET to smoke. I : can smoke if I want to – they are readily available to me. I’ve decided : that for now I don’t want to. It’s not that I can’t or shouldn’t, I : don’t want to. It’s difficult to explain how this is different, but it : is. I think for me, obsessing over the quit every minute of the day is : destructive. Quitting is not the only thing I am doing in my life. I : feel like I made it harder than it had to be. : : I finally made an appointment with a real, live psychiatrist. I will be : 14 days into the quit, so he should get a good look at the crazy me. %-) : I feel like I need someone to take a good look at my pain meds and my : history, a fresh set of eyes. I don’t hold out much hope for any big : change. In the past, all that has helped is time. Meds don’t do much, : neither does talking or writing or reading or doing little workbook : assignments. Time. I’ve got plenty of it. This doc first obtained a law : degree and then went for his MD. Most of his patients are of the : geriatric persuasion, but my GP recommended him highly. We shall see. : : I’m already planning to spend the saved money. I’m getting a new wedding : band and engagement ring. Since losing weight, the old ones don’t fit. : The diamond in my solitaire is cracked – the result of slamming my hand : against the night stand at just the right angle. : : Soooo… I’m back on the 21mg patch, using the inhaler. I’ve got gum and : lozenges to use when I get bored with the other methods. See, I : replenished my stock even when I was smoking because I knew I’d be back : to the quit. The vivid dreams with the patches have returned…I’m : even revisiting stories from dreams with the last quit. It’s like my : very own soap opera. : /mops up guts : : What’s going on today? : -Hubbs is still smoking and talking about cutting his long hair. : -The Jack Dempsey in the tank on my desk died yesterday. : -The cory catfish are laying eggs every 8-10 days – 4th batch now. : -My LTD has been approved for another 12 months. : -Still ruling out MS : : That’s about it except for writing about why I quit quitting. I’ve : thought about it and decided that there isn’t a good reason. I could : list excuses, but they aren’t worth a plug nickel. Looking back, I can : see that I was waiting for an excuse and jumped on one. : : Moving the light switch, : Sheena

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> Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before. > /spills guts > You know, I never felt like the last one ever quite "took." I was > miserable for most of the time.  I’ve adjusted my thinking a bit and > hopefully this will be the one. My plan is to not obsess over every > little thing, not to look at other smokers as those who GET to smoke. I > can smoke if I want to – they are readily available to me. I’ve decided > that for now I don’t want to. It’s not that I can’t or shouldn’t, I > don’t want to.

Yup. This is what worked for me, too.  Good to see you back and posting. hugs, elle

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Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before. /spills guts You know, I never felt like the last one ever quite "took." I was miserable for most of the time.  I’ve adjusted my thinking a bit and hopefully this will be the one. My plan is to not obsess over every little thing, not to look at other smokers as those who GET to smoke. I can smoke if I want to – they are readily available to me. I’ve decided that for now I don’t want to. It’s not that I can’t or shouldn’t, I don’t want to. It’s difficult to explain how this is different, but it is. I think for me, obsessing over the quit every minute of the day is destructive. Quitting is not the only thing I am doing in my life. I feel like I made it harder than it had to be. I finally made an appointment with a real, live psychiatrist. I will be 14 days into the quit, so he should get a good look at the crazy me. %-) I feel like I need someone to take a good look at my pain meds and my history, a fresh set of eyes. I don’t hold out much hope for any big change. In the past, all that has helped is time. Meds don’t do much, neither does talking or writing or reading or doing little workbook assignments. Time. I’ve got plenty of it. This doc first obtained a law degree and then went for his MD. Most of his patients are of the geriatric persuasion, but my GP recommended him highly. We shall see. I’m already planning to spend the saved money. I’m getting a new wedding band and engagement ring. Since losing weight, the old ones don’t fit. The diamond in my solitaire is cracked – the result of slamming my hand against the night stand at just the right angle. Soooo… I’m back on the 21mg patch, using the inhaler. I’ve got gum and lozenges to use when I get bored with the other methods. See, I replenished my stock even when I was smoking because I knew I’d be back to the quit. The vivid dreams with the patches have returned…I’m even revisiting stories from dreams with the last quit. It’s like my very own soap opera. /mops up guts What’s going on today? -Hubbs is still smoking and talking about cutting his long hair. -The Jack Dempsey in the tank on my desk died yesterday. -The cory catfish are laying eggs every 8-10 days – 4th batch now. -My LTD has been approved for another 12 months. -Still ruling out MS That’s about it except for writing about why I quit quitting. I’ve thought about it and decided that there isn’t a good reason. I could list excuses, but they aren’t worth a plug nickel. Looking back, I can see that I was waiting for an excuse and jumped on one. Moving the light switch, Sheena

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Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before. /spills guts You know, I never felt like the last one ever quite "took." I was miserable for most of the time.  I’ve adjusted my thinking a bit and hopefully this will be the one. My plan is to not obsess over every little thing, not to look at other smokers as those who GET to smoke. I can smoke if I want to – they are readily available to me. I’ve decided that for now I don’t want to. It’s not that I can’t or shouldn’t, I don’t want to. It’s difficult to explain how this is different, but it is. I think for me, obsessing over the quit every minute of the day is destructive. Quitting is not the only thing I am doing in my life. I feel like I made it harder than it had to be. I finally made an appointment with a real, live psychiatrist. I will be 14 days into the quit, so he should get a good look at the crazy me. %-) I feel like I need someone to take a good look at my pain meds and my history, a fresh set of eyes. I don’t hold out much hope for any big change. In the past, all that has helped is time. Meds don’t do much, neither does talking or writing or reading or doing little workbook assignments. Time. I’ve got plenty of it. This doc first obtained a law degree and then went for his MD. Most of his patients are of the geriatric persuasion, but my GP recommended him highly. We shall see. I’m already planning to spend the saved money. I’m getting a new wedding band and engagement ring. Since losing weight, the old ones don’t fit. The diamond in my solitaire is cracked – the result of slamming my hand against the night stand at just the right angle. Soooo… I’m back on the 21mg patch, using the inhaler. I’ve got gum and lozenges to use when I get bored with the other methods. See, I replenished my stock even when I was smoking because I knew I’d be back to the quit. The vivid dreams with the patches have returned…I’m even revisiting stories from dreams with the last quit. It’s like my very own soap opera. /mops up guts What’s going on today? -Hubbs is still smoking and talking about cutting his long hair. -The Jack Dempsey in the tank on my desk died yesterday. -The cory catfish are laying eggs every 8-10 days – 4th batch now. -My LTD has been approved for another 12 months. -Still ruling out MS That’s about it except for writing about why I quit quitting. I’ve thought about it and decided that there isn’t a good reason. I could list excuses, but they aren’t worth a plug nickel. Looking back, I can see that I was waiting for an excuse and jumped on one. Moving the light switch, Sheena

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Excellent post!  And congrats on your decision, Sheena. The "not wanting" thing is KEY! This quit will stick, Good luck, DG

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before. > /spills guts > You know, I never felt like the last one ever quite "took." I was > miserable for most of the time.  I’ve adjusted my thinking a bit and > hopefully this will be the one. My plan is to not obsess over every > little thing, not to look at other smokers as those who GET to smoke. I > can smoke if I want to – they are readily available to me. I’ve decided > that for now I don’t want to. It’s not that I can’t or shouldn’t, I > don’t want to. It’s difficult to explain how this is different, but it > is. I think for me, obsessing over the quit every minute of the day is > destructive. Quitting is not the only thing I am doing in my life. I > feel like I made it harder than it had to be. > I finally made an appointment with a real, live psychiatrist. I will be > 14 days into the quit, so he should get a good look at the crazy me. %-) > I feel like I need someone to take a good look at my pain meds and my > history, a fresh set of eyes. I don’t hold out much hope for any big > change. In the past, all that has helped is time. Meds don’t do much, > neither does talking or writing or reading or doing little workbook > assignments. Time. I’ve got plenty of it. This doc first obtained a law > degree and then went for his MD. Most of his patients are of the > geriatric persuasion, but my GP recommended him highly. We shall see. > I’m already planning to spend the saved money. I’m getting a new wedding > band and engagement ring. Since losing weight, the old ones don’t fit. > The diamond in my solitaire is cracked – the result of slamming my hand > against the night stand at just the right angle. > Soooo… I’m back on the 21mg patch, using the inhaler. I’ve got gum and > lozenges to use when I get bored with the other methods. See, I > replenished my stock even when I was smoking because I knew I’d be back > to the quit. The vivid dreams with the patches have returned…I’m > even revisiting stories from dreams with the last quit. It’s like my > very own soap opera. > /mops up guts > What’s going on today? > -Hubbs is still smoking and talking about cutting his long hair. > -The Jack Dempsey in the tank on my desk died yesterday. > -The cory catfish are laying eggs every 8-10 days – 4th batch now. > -My LTD has been approved for another 12 months. > -Still ruling out MS > That’s about it except for writing about why I quit quitting. I’ve > thought about it and decided that there isn’t a good reason. I could > list excuses, but they aren’t worth a plug nickel. Looking back, I can > see that I was waiting for an excuse and jumped on one. > Moving the light switch, > Sheena

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>Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before.

Welcome back…. All your friends are still here so use us! Jack Dempseys can be a bit ungrateful sometimes Steveb

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> My plan is to not obsess over every little thing, not >to look at other

smokers as those who GET to >smoke. I can smoke if I want to – they are readily >available to me. NOW this is what I want to hear!!! To me, the key to quitting is to *stop* acting like a victim of this habit. Smoking is a choice.  You can do it or You won’t do it. Ranting about quitting is fine — just as long as it doesn’t harm your quit. Sometimes it is a good thing to just let your mind wander elsewhere and forgettaboutit.  Early in my quit,  I avoided talking about quitting smoking while in chat.  Talking about quitting used to be a huge trigger for me. What does MikeM call it?  Diversion Therapy? Do what works best for you Sheena Good to see you posting again, Joy

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> Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before.

Yeah, but having you around again doesn’t  Good to see you back to quitting! — mc I haven’t lost my mind, It is backed up on disk somewhere. QOF

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> Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before. > /spills guts > You know, I never felt like the last one ever quite "took." I was > miserable for most of the time.  I’ve adjusted my thinking a bit and > hopefully this will be the one. My plan is to not obsess over every > little thing, not to look at other smokers as those who GET to smoke. I > can smoke if I want to – they are readily available to me. I’ve decided > that for now I don’t want to. It’s not that I can’t or shouldn’t, I > don’t want to.

Yup. This is what worked for me, too.  Good to see you back and posting. hugs, elle

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Sheena, you are a winner!  I know it, because I’ve been seeing you in your struggles.  Most of us have been there.  Welcome back, we need you! With hope and heart, Kathleen "Dogs feel very strongly that they should always go with you in the car, in case the need should arise for them to bark violently at nothing right in your ear." — Dave Barry : Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before. : : /spills guts : You know, I never felt like the last one ever quite "took." I was : miserable for most of the time.  I’ve adjusted my thinking a bit and : hopefully this will be the one. My plan is to not obsess over every : little thing, not to look at other smokers as those who GET to smoke. I : can smoke if I want to – they are readily available to me. I’ve decided : that for now I don’t want to. It’s not that I can’t or shouldn’t, I : don’t want to. It’s difficult to explain how this is different, but it : is. I think for me, obsessing over the quit every minute of the day is : destructive. Quitting is not the only thing I am doing in my life. I : feel like I made it harder than it had to be. : : I finally made an appointment with a real, live psychiatrist. I will be : 14 days into the quit, so he should get a good look at the crazy me. %-) : I feel like I need someone to take a good look at my pain meds and my : history, a fresh set of eyes. I don’t hold out much hope for any big : change. In the past, all that has helped is time. Meds don’t do much, : neither does talking or writing or reading or doing little workbook : assignments. Time. I’ve got plenty of it. This doc first obtained a law : degree and then went for his MD. Most of his patients are of the : geriatric persuasion, but my GP recommended him highly. We shall see. : : I’m already planning to spend the saved money. I’m getting a new wedding : band and engagement ring. Since losing weight, the old ones don’t fit. : The diamond in my solitaire is cracked – the result of slamming my hand : against the night stand at just the right angle. : : Soooo… I’m back on the 21mg patch, using the inhaler. I’ve got gum and : lozenges to use when I get bored with the other methods. See, I : replenished my stock even when I was smoking because I knew I’d be back : to the quit. The vivid dreams with the patches have returned…I’m : even revisiting stories from dreams with the last quit. It’s like my : very own soap opera. : /mops up guts : : What’s going on today? : -Hubbs is still smoking and talking about cutting his long hair. : -The Jack Dempsey in the tank on my desk died yesterday. : -The cory catfish are laying eggs every 8-10 days – 4th batch now. : -My LTD has been approved for another 12 months. : -Still ruling out MS : : That’s about it except for writing about why I quit quitting. I’ve : thought about it and decided that there isn’t a good reason. I could : list excuses, but they aren’t worth a plug nickel. Looking back, I can : see that I was waiting for an excuse and jumped on one. : : Moving the light switch, : Sheena

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Yep, you’re right. No matter where you are at, it sucks. Hopefully not for ever though! And Fat Ass is still here to give you grief about your Thunder Thighs ! Paula

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before. > /spills guts > You know, I never felt like the last one ever quite "took." I was > miserable for most of the time.  I’ve adjusted my thinking a bit and > hopefully this will be the one. My plan is to not obsess over every > little thing, not to look at other smokers as those who GET to smoke. I > can smoke if I want to – they are readily available to me. I’ve decided > that for now I don’t want to. It’s not that I can’t or shouldn’t, I > don’t want to. It’s difficult to explain how this is different, but it > is. I think for me, obsessing over the quit every minute of the day is > destructive. Quitting is not the only thing I am doing in my life. I > feel like I made it harder than it had to be. > I finally made an appointment with a real, live psychiatrist. I will be > 14 days into the quit, so he should get a good look at the crazy me. %-) > I feel like I need someone to take a good look at my pain meds and my > history, a fresh set of eyes. I don’t hold out much hope for any big > change. In the past, all that has helped is time. Meds don’t do much, > neither does talking or writing or reading or doing little workbook > assignments. Time. I’ve got plenty of it. This doc first obtained a law > degree and then went for his MD. Most of his patients are of the > geriatric persuasion, but my GP recommended him highly. We shall see. > I’m already planning to spend the saved money. I’m getting a new wedding > band and engagement ring. Since losing weight, the old ones don’t fit. > The diamond in my solitaire is cracked – the result of slamming my hand > against the night stand at just the right angle. > Soooo… I’m back on the 21mg patch, using the inhaler. I’ve got gum and > lozenges to use when I get bored with the other methods. See, I > replenished my stock even when I was smoking because I knew I’d be back > to the quit. The vivid dreams with the patches have returned…I’m > even revisiting stories from dreams with the last quit. It’s like my > very own soap opera. > /mops up guts > What’s going on today? > -Hubbs is still smoking and talking about cutting his long hair. > -The Jack Dempsey in the tank on my desk died yesterday. > -The cory catfish are laying eggs every 8-10 days – 4th batch now. > -My LTD has been approved for another 12 months. > -Still ruling out MS > That’s about it except for writing about why I quit quitting. I’ve > thought about it and decided that there isn’t a good reason. I could > list excuses, but they aren’t worth a plug nickel. Looking back, I can > see that I was waiting for an excuse and jumped on one. > Moving the light switch, > Sheena

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That’s how I look at it Sheena.  If the thought or urge for a cig crosses my mind – I just say to myself that I don’t want it.   No way – no how!!  And this is different for me too – hoping it’s a change that will make this quit last! You are doing good!  God Bless!                      JoAnne Six days, 1 hour, 50 minutes and 57 seconds. 139 cigarettes not smoked, saving $22.36. Life saved: 11 hours, 35 minutes.

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before. > /spills guts > You know, I never felt like the last one ever quite "took." I was > miserable for most of the time.  I’ve adjusted my thinking a bit and > hopefully this will be the one. My plan is to not obsess over every > little thing, not to look at other smokers as those who GET to smoke. I > can smoke if I want to – they are readily available to me. I’ve decided > that for now I don’t want to. It’s not that I can’t or shouldn’t, I > don’t want to. It’s difficult to explain how this is different, but it > is. I think for me, obsessing over the quit every minute of the day is > destructive. Quitting is not the only thing I am doing in my life. I > feel like I made it harder than it had to be. > I finally made an appointment with a real, live psychiatrist. I will be > 14 days into the quit, so he should get a good look at the crazy me. %-) > I feel like I need someone to take a good look at my pain meds and my > history, a fresh set of eyes. I don’t hold out much hope for any big > change. In the past, all that has helped is time. Meds don’t do much, > neither does talking or writing or reading or doing little workbook > assignments. Time. I’ve got plenty of it. This doc first obtained a law > degree and then went for his MD. Most of his patients are of the > geriatric persuasion, but my GP recommended him highly. We shall see. > I’m already planning to spend the saved money. I’m getting a new wedding > band and engagement ring. Since losing weight, the old ones don’t fit. > The diamond in my solitaire is cracked – the result of slamming my hand > against the night stand at just the right angle. > Soooo… I’m back on the 21mg patch, using the inhaler. I’ve got gum and > lozenges to use when I get bored with the other methods. See, I > replenished my stock even when I was smoking because I knew I’d be back > to the quit. The vivid dreams with the patches have returned…I’m > even revisiting stories from dreams with the last quit. It’s like my > very own soap opera. > /mops up guts > What’s going on today? > -Hubbs is still smoking and talking about cutting his long hair. > -The Jack Dempsey in the tank on my desk died yesterday. > -The cory catfish are laying eggs every 8-10 days – 4th batch now. > -My LTD has been approved for another 12 months. > -Still ruling out MS > That’s about it except for writing about why I quit quitting. I’ve > thought about it and decided that there isn’t a good reason. I could > list excuses, but they aren’t worth a plug nickel. Looking back, I can > see that I was waiting for an excuse and jumped on one. > Moving the light switch, > Sheena

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Sheena — All the best to you.  The secret is — don’t ever quit quitting.  You can do this. Hang in there, Coleen – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – >Quitting this time arounds sucks just as much as it did before. >/spills guts >You know, I never felt like the last one ever quite "took." I was >miserable for most of the time.  I’ve adjusted my thinking a bit and >hopefully this will be the one. My plan is to not obsess over every >little thing, not to look at other smokers as those who GET to smoke. I >can smoke if I want to – they are readily available to me. I’ve decided >that for now I don’t want to. It’s not that I can’t or shouldn’t, I >don’t want to. It’s difficult to explain how this is different, but it >is. I think for me, obsessing over the quit every minute of the day is >destructive. Quitting is not the only thing I am doing in my life. I >feel like I made it harder than it had to be. >I finally made an appointment with a real, live psychiatrist. I will be >14 days into the quit, so he should get a good look at the crazy me. %-) >I feel like I need someone to take a good look at my pain meds and my >history, a fresh set of eyes. I don’t hold out much hope for any big >change. In the past, all that has helped is time. Meds don’t do much, >neither does talking or writing or reading or doing little workbook >assignments. Time. I’ve got plenty of it. This doc first obtained a law >degree and then went for his MD. Most of his patients are of the >geriatric persuasion, but my GP recommended him highly. We shall see. >I’m already planning to spend the saved money. I’m getting a new wedding >band and engagement ring. Since losing weight, the old ones don’t fit. >The diamond in my solitaire is cracked – the result of slamming my hand >against the night stand at just the right angle. >Soooo… I’m back on the 21mg patch, using the inhaler. I’ve got gum and >lozenges to use when I get bored with the other methods. See, I >replenished my stock even when I was smoking because I knew I’d be back >to the quit. The vivid dreams with the patches have returned…I’m >even revisiting stories from dreams with the last quit. It’s like my >very own soap opera. >/mops up guts >What’s going on today? >-Hubbs is still smoking and talking about cutting his long hair. >-The Jack Dempsey in the tank on my desk died yesterday. >-The cory catfish are laying eggs every 8-10 days – 4th batch now. >-My LTD has been approved for another 12 months. >-Still ruling out MS >That’s about it except for writing about why I quit quitting. I’ve >thought about it and decided that there isn’t a good reason. I could >list excuses, but they aren’t worth a plug nickel. Looking back, I can >see that I was waiting for an excuse and jumped on one. >Moving the light switch, >Sheena

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